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Psalm 16:11
You make known to me the path of life; in your presence there is fullness of joy; at your right hand are pleasures forevermore.

Plenty

I’ve heard many people proclaim, “I have no regrets.” I think they’re lying. Because when this declaration is made you can see in their eyes that they aren’t saying they’ve never done anything regrettable, just that they are choosing not to let that regret affect their lives. I don’t think its an entirely conscious decision they make, to lie about regrets, maybe more of a defense. But at the base I think the intentions are good. We can’t let our lives get caught up in our mistakes.

But not acknowledging our pitfalls and our shortcomings is a no-no. We need to learn and better ourselves from the times we mess up. A large portion of our character is built from those times when we have to face something we have screwed up.

So yes I have regrets, and what I’ve learned from them is a large part of who I am.

I think in five years my life will be different in a few areas.

Home – In five years we will own a home. Currently the Lady and I rent a nice little place, but we would like to have a place of our own.

Work – In five years I will have a different job. I don’t what I’ll be doing or for who but I think there will be a transition of some sort.

Family – In five years our family will probably get bigger. We’ll probably get another dog…;)

What is in your five year plan?

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I honestly don’t think I have any questions for God at the moment. I tried thinking about a serious question and everything I thought of I could either answer somehow or dismiss as an unworthy question. I also think it would seem sorta big headed of me to think that God should need to explain anything to me. That the creator or some of the most complex and hard to grasp things in the universe was in any way answering to me. I know how ridiculous that is. “It’s a hypothetical situation” you say, “OK then,” you add “What if God commanded it. If  you had to ask him a question?”

Well in that case, what’s the deal with the platypus?

I would spend more time just talking to people.

I love a good story. And when it comes to peoples lives, there isn’t anything better. Think about it, it’s a pretty complicated tale of how you got where you are. Answers to questions like how you decided where to live, who got you your first job, and what event changed the direction of your life are usually quite unique. I love to just hear people lay out their life and all the interesting connections they have made.

If I could change something, I would listen to more life stories. Maybe I could compile them into a book, or bring back my reality TV idea and roll this into it.

A desperate pursuit of understanding.

March 22, 2009

To be an astronaut.

Like many other kids, when I was young I was drawn to space exploration. I was very young when the Challenger incident happened, but it was still a topic when I was in elementary school. I think the fact that one of the astronauts was a teacher made me think that truly anyone could do it. I wanted to go to the moon(Mars wasn’t in the picture then) and walk in places no one else had been. The views from space always seemed to peaceful and serene, while still be vast and breathtaking. I wanted to know what that adventure was truly like.

My spacey aspirations didn’t last much out of grade school, but I still wonder what being an astronaut would have been like.

Of course not.
Watch out, I’m bringing out my soapbox on this one.

Have you ever asked anyone this question? They most always say yes. Because after all we try to do the right thing most of the time. We also don’t like for our actions cause others pain, so we attempt to keep that from happening. And there are definitely people out there worse than I am right? But what is good? In order to meet a standard there has to be one, and who is qualified to set that standard? Do we aim for an equal standard or a fair standard?

To bring the Lord into it – Luke 18:19 says that ‘No one is good except God alone’. Hes done the work for us on this one. I know there are lots of people who want to try and take a relativistic standing but it seems to usually end up in a hypocritical view point.

We are broken people, plain and simple.

Are you a good person?

I am.

I’m sure at some point I’ve wronged someone enough to create an enemy, but they will probably wait until I reveal my superhero persona before surfacing. Until then I have no trouble getting in my own way.

I’ve heard it said that we each have a ‘shadow mission’. Something that lies waiting for an opportunity to keep us from fulfilling our true purpose. Using every foothold it can get into your weakness and insecurity, it will slowly misdirect you.

My ‘shadow mission’ would be laziness. It’s something that I have to fight in myself regularly. From small things like choosing TV over the dishes to bigger issues, laziness has a way of creeping in when I don’t expect it. I have to stay on watch for signs of laziness and be ready to work against it.

Do you have an enemy?